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Reflection 1 - Career Stability 2021
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Reflection 2 - Slow and Steady 2022
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A Few Thoughts

  • I struggled through elementary school. My mom’s daily presence helped me overcome my learning challenges in school.
  • 3+ years of conversations with Phil Brown through iTDi’s TESOL course helped me discover my teaching voice.
  • Working with Young Min’ through illustrations has provided me a lot of creative control with the content I use.
  • I love the stability that friends, family, and colleagues bring to my life and work.

Have a better 2022

Influential friends, family and colleagues

2021 – Career

Uh huh.
Hello.
Hello.
I'm just thinking about career stability and how how when I was like really young like this and you know thinking about you know what he thought about in career stability is like I don't need career stability,
I'm only gonna stay in Korea for one year.
And you know he would not have followed what I what I want to tell him today but he may have not have listened but he may have followed.
You never know.
And you know,
I put a picture here of my son because you know,
we're growing up together in this career of a study room together and you know like the way that we live will affect you know how he thinks about his life and his career as he grows up and that's a tough one because I don't I know what I do isn't always right for him,
for me,
for us,
but we make decisions based upon what we do.
Now I've been living in South Korea for Almost 20 years since I was 22 years old.
As you can see in this book,
I worked at a wonderland and it was uh it was,
it was nice but it wasn't really sustainable because well when I was 22 it was very much sustainable.
I had a job I got paid every month,
always on time.
It was awesome.
It allowed me to pay off my bills and my debt from a university for for a career that I wasn't too fond of in computer science.
So you know,
at the time there's a great opportunity for me.
It opened up the doors to you know where I am now.
But you know,
the one thing I trusted about the job was that they would always make me teach.
And you know,
as I came as I met a lot of owner friends and you know,
it's like owners make money from teachers teaching,
not from curriculum development,
not from you know,
trainings and what not.
It all came from teaching teaching,
you know?
Oh my son is talking,
yeah,
sorry.
And uh I mean I'm on the brand,
it's a little bit hot in here and well,
so in the end I had to,
you know,
I had to make a choice,
you know,
do I stay where I trust that they'll keep me working as much as I can or do I take a new job and try something different and learn to do new things.
So I changed my job,
I switched to a public school job and it was wonderful.
I had a lot more teaching time,
a lot less teaching time,
a lot more time to plan my lessons and a lot more time to think about where I wanted to go and whether or not I wanted this to be my career.
And so some of my friends at that time,
a lot of my friends,
they went to,
you know,
they got their masters and whatnot.
I was always skeptical because it was always just supposed to be a year long this career.
This job of mine was only supposed to be a year,
a year,
a year,
a year.
But now,
you know,
19 years,
I was like,
Oh my goodness,
what do I do next?
And that's what I'm not too sure.
That's what I'm trying to figure out.
You know,
the stability in my own future.
And uh and in the end,
you know,
the government,
you know,
they cut the funding for the schools program.
So the choice wasn't really mine.
Whether or not I could keep my job or not,
it was just cut with the government.
So I was I was forced to make a decision.
You know,
do I go here or do I go here?
Do I started my own little school or do I go back to a hug one?
It's like,
I don't want to go to hug one because I trust the teeth that hug one owners will make me work because that's how we get paid.
So I switched up a little bit and I started my own little uh study room and,
and now,
you know,
hasn't been stable.
Yes.
No.
Kind of,
there's always been ups and downs and,
you know,
covid,
Covid 19 has really caused me to think about,
you know,
when I,
when I lost my opportunity to teach,
it's like when I had to switch online,
it's like,
this is,
this is not as stable as I thought it would be.
And,
you know I'm not 20 anymore,
I'm not 30 anymore now,
I'm in my forties and I'm like well I got to think about ways to create systems that allow me to do multiple things because I just don't have the energy I can't do what I used to do in my twenties or thirties and nor do I want to I I've got other commitments now so you know I'm gonna be here doing what I can do to to learn how to get my my career.
So it's it's it's got a little bit of A.
B.
And C.
Now.
I don't know what these these things are.
A little bit of training through I.
D.
D.
I.
A little bit of curriculum development,
a little bit of web design,
a little bit of you know teaching a little bit of you know I've got multiple roles and through those multiple roles,
I'm hoping to find some more stability in my career.
Uh Thanks a lot,
guys.
And uh these days I'm gonna be doing these a little bit more often because actually quite often because I'm trying to clean out the clean up the brain of ideas so that I can move forward with wherever I want to go in the coming year.
Alright,
Talk to you later.
Bye bye.

Uh huh.
Hello.
Hello.
I'm just thinking about career stability and how how when I was like really young like this and you know thinking about you know what he thought about in career stability is like I don't need career stability, I'm only gonna stay in Korea for one year.

And you know he would not have followed what I what I want to tell him today but he may have not have listened but he may have followed.
You never know.
And you know,

I put a picture here of my son because you know, we're growing up together in this career of a study room together and you know like the way that we live will affect you know how he thinks about his life and his career as he grows up and that's a tough one because I don't I know what I do isn't always right for him, for me,

for us, but we make decisions based upon what we do.
Now I've been living in South Korea for Almost 20 years since I was 22 years old.
As you can see in this book, I worked at a wonderland and it was uh it was,

it was nice but it wasn't really sustainable because well when I was 22 it was very much sustainable.
I had a job I got paid every month, always on time.
It was awesome.

It allowed me to pay off my bills and my debt from a university for for a career that I wasn't too fond of in computer science.
So you know, at the time there's a great opportunity for me.
It opened up the doors to you know where I am now.

But you know, the one thing I trusted about the job was that they would always make me teach.
And you know, as I came as I met a lot of owner friends and you know, it's like owners make money from teachers teaching,

not from curriculum development, not from you know, trainings and what not.
It all came from teaching teaching, you know? Oh my son is talking, yeah, sorry.
And uh I mean I'm on the brand, it's a little bit hot in here and well,

so in the end I had to, you know, I had to make a choice, you know, do I stay where I trust that they'll keep me working as much as I can or do I take a new job and try something different and learn to do new things.
So I changed my job,

I switched to a public school job and it was wonderful.
I had a lot more teaching time, a lot less teaching time, a lot more time to plan my lessons and a lot more time to think about where I wanted to go and whether or not I wanted this to be my career.
And so some of my friends at that time,

a lot of my friends, they went to, you know, they got their masters and whatnot.
I was always skeptical because it was always just supposed to be a year long this career.
This job of mine was only supposed to be a year,

a year, a year, a year.
But now, you know, 19 years, I was like, Oh my goodness, what do I do next? And that's what I'm not too sure.
That's what I'm trying to figure out.
You know,

the stability in my own future.
And uh and in the end, you know, the government, you know, they cut the funding for the schools program.
So the choice wasn't really mine.
Whether or not I could keep my job or not,

it was just cut with the government.
So I was I was forced to make a decision.
You know, do I go here or do I go here? Do I started my own little school or do I go back to a hug one? It's like,

I don't want to go to hug one because I trust the teeth that hug one owners will make me work because that's how we get paid.
So I switched up a little bit and I started my own little uh study room and, and now,

you know, hasn't been stable.
Yes.
No.
Kind of, there's always been ups and downs and, you know, covid, Covid 19 has really caused me to think about, you know, when I, when I lost my opportunity to teach,

it's like when I had to switch online, it's like, this is, this is not as stable as I thought it would be.
And, you know I'm not 20 anymore, I'm not 30 anymore now, I'm in my forties and I'm like well I got to think about ways to create systems that allow me to do multiple things because I just don't have the energy I can't do what I used to do in my twenties or thirties and nor do I want to I I've got other commitments now so you know I'm gonna be here doing what I can do to to learn how to get my my career.

So it's it's it's got a little bit of A.
B.
And C.
Now.
I don't know what these these things are.
A little bit of training through I.
D.
D.
I.
A little bit of curriculum development, a little bit of web design,

a little bit of you know teaching a little bit of you know I've got multiple roles and through those multiple roles, I'm hoping to find some more stability in my career.
Uh Thanks a lot,

guys.
And uh these days I'm gonna be doing these a little bit more often because actually quite often because I'm trying to clean out the clean up the brain of ideas so that I can move forward with wherever I want to go in the coming year.
Alright,

Talk to you later.
Bye bye.

2022 – Slow and Steady

hey,
friends,
family facebook because it's on public.
Right?
Well I just finished filming for this,
this this program on korean tv.
I'm sure you saw on my facebook page and it was a lot more work than I thought it would be.
You know,
I had six times filming like just filled my regular life,
everything that I normally do every day.
You know the things I've been doing for a long time and but you know,
filming it was so different,
it's totally different and I'm happy that I did it,
but I'm glad it's over and it's time for me to take a little rest from that,
But I recommend doing something different in 2022.
Uh but uh you know,
the thing is we,
I'm you know,
I'm in my 20th year now in Korea and I'm sort of,
you know,
still collecting my thoughts of like what does 20 years worth of uh slow and steady,
like little progress,
little pivots,
little directions,
what does it mean to me and where do I want to go into tomorrow?
And there's there's three people that I that I you know that I worked with the most and that I'm thankful for.
Um One is my mom,
she's always been,
you know,
she always sends me these upbeat messages.
Always,
she kind of knows how how things are difficult for me or how things have always been difficult for me because it was difficult for her and we kind of that shared sort of,
you know like challenges of learning something new or how to be part of certain things,
but you know trying to get around our heads around you know how to make how to do what we want to do in a way that we want to do it.
And I've always appreciated my mom because she's always been you know encouraging me in weird ways that I never really know like you know how like how well does do you know your own kids and how well do you know your own parents and me watching her grow up and she watches me grow up and and I'm very grateful to have a mom and and she's always and dad too but my mom talks more than my dad even though my dad's part of all the equations that I'm always anyways you know it's like it's really that's it's always nice to see I'm always very thankful for my mom,
another person is Phil Philip brown from I.
T.
D.
I.
And you know like the last three years and I think this is gonna be my last year taking the Tesla course but last year I mean I'm gonna take a break this year because it's like you know meet him every month and in in forums and blogs and meet them online and zoom chats and and and you know we discuss my teaching,
we like you know we look at some of the good things I do some of the bad things I do and he can give me a lot of criticism,
you know,
positive constructive criticisms of how I can improve and what I what I can how I can change my thinking to to make things work better.
And it was it's such a rewarding trans opportunity because you know when you when you're looking for transformations and you think that you know it's gonna happen overnight that you're you're going to take a course and it's like suddenly you have all this information and all this,
know how it doesn't really work that way.
It was just like slow,
slow lien peeling this onion,
the new layer after layer.
And and I could never ask for anybody better than Philip because he brought in you know being a dad,
he brought in being a business owner like you know independent contractor,
an independent teacher.
He brought in you know his experience from his master's program and he and he had the right skills,
the right to formulate the conversation that that benefited me the most.
And so I'm very appreciative of what everything he's done for for for me these last three years to build my school.
And uh and and the and the last person I want to thank you know that have had a real slow and steady sort of relationship with is is young men.
And I don't he's the illustrator I work with and even though I haven't had any pictures drawn this year and maybe even just a few last year,
but for years we worked together in,
in getting images and more images and more images and you know,
it's like because you know when I started off with one image,
I couldn't really tell any stories and when I had two images I could kind of like I had to take a lot of different places,
take from a lot of different places.
But now after,
after five years of slowly collecting a picture by picture by picture,
character,
after character,
after character setting,
after setting that you know,
I have,
I have enough now for for me to have enough to create that curriculum that I've always wanted.
Now it doesn't have all everything that I need,
but it has,
I have enough of the assets to to tell the stories that I want to tell or to build the lessons that I want to build and and that sort of like the ability to do that has allowed me a lot more agency,
a lot more agency inside you know,
my school.
So I get to do what I want,
how I want when I want and and now I have to learn how to sell that to my students and and you know,
it's not always easy because it takes,
you know,
it takes a lot of different,
you know,
figuring out that Rubik's cube.
But those are the three things that have brought some stability into my life.
My mom,
my mentor teacher Philip Brown and kim jong in kim Young Min for creating all my images have a,
have a great 2022 see you on facebook by by.

hey, friends, family facebook because it's on public.
Right? Well I just finished filming for this, this this program on korean tv.
I'm sure you saw on my facebook page and it was a lot more work than I thought it would be.
You know,

I had six times filming like just filled my regular life, everything that I normally do every day.
You know the things I've been doing for a long time and but you know, filming it was so different,

it's totally different and I'm happy that I did it, but I'm glad it's over and it's time for me to take a little rest from that, But I recommend doing something different in 2022.
Uh but uh you know,

the thing is we, I'm you know, I'm in my 20th year now in Korea and I'm sort of, you know, still collecting my thoughts of like what does 20 years worth of uh slow and steady, like little progress,

little pivots, little directions, what does it mean to me and where do I want to go into tomorrow? And there's there's three people that I that I you know that I worked with the most and that I'm thankful for.
Um One is my mom,

she's always been, you know, she always sends me these upbeat messages.
Always, she kind of knows how how things are difficult for me or how things have always been difficult for me because it was difficult for her and we kind of that shared sort of, you know like challenges of learning something new or how to be part of certain things,

but you know trying to get around our heads around you know how to make how to do what we want to do in a way that we want to do it.
And I've always appreciated my mom because she's always been you know encouraging me in weird ways that I never really know like you know how like how well does do you know your own kids and how well do you know your own parents and me watching her grow up and she watches me grow up and and I'm very grateful to have a mom and and she's always and dad too but my mom talks more than my dad even though my dad's part of all the equations that I'm always anyways you know it's like it's really that's it's always nice to see I'm always very thankful for my mom,

another person is Phil Philip brown from I.
T.
D.
I.
And you know like the last three years and I think this is gonna be my last year taking the Tesla course but last year I mean I'm gonna take a break this year because it's like you know meet him every month and in in forums and blogs and meet them online and zoom chats and and and you know we discuss my teaching, we like you know we look at some of the good things I do some of the bad things I do and he can give me a lot of criticism,

you know, positive constructive criticisms of how I can improve and what I what I can how I can change my thinking to to make things work better.
And it was it's such a rewarding trans opportunity because you know when you when you're looking for transformations and you think that you know it's gonna happen overnight that you're you're going to take a course and it's like suddenly you have all this information and all this, know how it doesn't really work that way.

It was just like slow, slow lien peeling this onion, the new layer after layer.
And and I could never ask for anybody better than Philip because he brought in you know being a dad, he brought in being a business owner like you know independent contractor,

an independent teacher.
He brought in you know his experience from his master's program and he and he had the right skills, the right to formulate the conversation that that benefited me the most.
And so I'm very appreciative of what everything he's done for for for me these last three years to build my school.

And uh and and the and the last person I want to thank you know that have had a real slow and steady sort of relationship with is is young men.
And I don't he's the illustrator I work with and even though I haven't had any pictures drawn this year and maybe even just a few last year, but for years we worked together in,

in getting images and more images and more images and you know, it's like because you know when I started off with one image, I couldn't really tell any stories and when I had two images I could kind of like I had to take a lot of different places, take from a lot of different places.

But now after, after five years of slowly collecting a picture by picture by picture, character, after character, after character setting, after setting that you know, I have,

I have enough now for for me to have enough to create that curriculum that I've always wanted.
Now it doesn't have all everything that I need, but it has, I have enough of the assets to to tell the stories that I want to tell or to build the lessons that I want to build and and that sort of like the ability to do that has allowed me a lot more agency,

a lot more agency inside you know, my school.
So I get to do what I want, how I want when I want and and now I have to learn how to sell that to my students and and you know, it's not always easy because it takes,

you know, it takes a lot of different, you know, figuring out that Rubik's cube.
But those are the three things that have brought some stability into my life.
My mom,

my mentor teacher Philip Brown and kim jong in kim Young Min for creating all my images have a, have a great 2022 see you on facebook by by.

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